Another day completed

Hah, yeah, about that wish, I forgot one thing, today, during early morning of my day..I remember, I should have added :wireless modem....I want it, so that i can online everywhere in this house, so that i can be with my computer, in front of tv, or when i'm inside my room. Thats it je la kot setakat ni..

I got alredy the baju kurung vietnam from naslia, hikhik....nas, please remind me to pay all those baju kurungs everymonth...I was very2 excited with these baju kurungs the moment I saw them...Sangat cantik. Nas punye taste memang leh caye...hikhik...

Masa tgh2 jalan, ke vista aritu, teringat...by rite, I should buy one for my stepmom rite? Sbb kakak dapat satu, kak linda satu, jiji satu, nak pakai masa hari raya..Then masa pegi jalan2 ke rumah makcik2, sure they will ask, heh, cantik baju, beli mana ni, tiga2 pakai baju sepesen(baju cantik bleh membawa riak is it? Haha, sebab tuh, bacalah doa sebelum memakai baju..)..

Nas, ada lagi tak baju? Hikhik, kami bertiga, adik beradik, selalu bertogether2, dan melupakan sekeliling ketika kami bersama, even kadang2, duduk dalam bilik tetiga orang (melarikan diri seketika dari suami2 mereka) bergosip2...wahaha...Seriously i miss my sisters rite now!

Talking about my prob that I faced lately, as i said, its all because of me...Discuss dengan kak linda masa tuh, should i run from this situation? Then I sat alone, and think back...I know my self rite, and I have took the decision to face it. I dont want to run, I want to pass it. Coz my instict tell me that, if I run this time, I'll keep on facing it next time. Running from prob never suits me. Face it. Thats it.

And of course, do something about it. And this will take huge efforts. Jangan lari2 lagi, jangan pusing mana2 lagik. This is it. Dah stop. Theres one side of me said, I dont want this, and I'm not happy with this, maybe I'm not belong to this kind of thing. I just have to keep on searching, somewhere else. And the other side of me, keep on telling me..NO, ITS ALL ABOUT URSELF. No matter where u are now, Its always not because of the place, the time,the situation, or the environment. Its about u.

The stories that I have read before, about one guy, keep on coming to my head. Theres one guy, had this prob...blablabla...long story of coz, then, he stop, and give up, and went somewhere, cam agak jauh jugakla, menenangkan diri la kononnya. Masa tuh, ayah dier kasi satu surat, and ayah dier cakap, ok bukak ni, masa dah sampai kat sana...

Then this guy, bila sampai sana, still tercari2 , still tak dapat hepi tuh. Apa yang tak kena? Then he open surat ayah dier...I dont really remember, about the full content. And the sentence that keep on coming to my head that i can remember " Anakku, sepastinya, engkau belum gembira di sana bukan?"

Mengapa? Kerana gembira itu terletak pada hati, biar ke mana saja engkau pergi, engkau pasti tidak akan gembira, kerana gembira itu tidak hadir dari mana2, selain dari hati dan dirimu sendiri"

One side nak lari, tapi ayat ni, keep on coming, keep on coming, everywhere. Macam ayah guy tu, dok mai cakap kat aku, "Anakkuu.........ayat tuh" ...Gosh...So pakcik, pakcik boleh diam sekarang, as I wont go anywhere. I'll stand still. Here.

I'm gonna pass this test. I know it. I am. I am. And I am. Somewhere somehow, theres a bigger challenge that Allah prepare for me in the future. I have to pass this, so I'll get stronger to face that challenge in the future.

U are brave..kenapa berani sangat? I penah got that kind of comment. And my answer at that moment. My biggest fear in this world...LOSING MY MOTHER. Menda tuh dah lepas, so I dont get afraid of anything rite now. I dare to say that..when I'm positif and full tank with energy..

SO skang kenapa takut? Kenapa takut dengan cabaran? Lalui saja. The biggest fear...dah lepas, dah cukup hidup yg terhuyung hayang...thats it. U set everything for your mother, and u dont even dare to imagine, u will lose her rite dulu? U always wish - u want to die before ur mother, so that ur mother wont leave u alone in this world.

Allah hilangkan ur mother from you. To vanish ur fear, and to prove that, U can actually continue living without her. So what? U can do it, dont get afraid of something. Its proven!Setiap perkara jie, ada penyelesaiannya. Dont ever think that u cannot do it. Do it. Coz Allah assign it to you.

Motivate urself. Dare to do it alone. Dont ever menagih simpati from others. People wont know ur pain. People can say everything about you. But ur story still ur own story. People just see pieces of our own story. They dont really know the real2 story behind. If every people get to know the real , full story...when they can see the complete jigsaw puzzle....There they can understand.

Ur family support u much, ur uni, ur skool fwens, ur good2 fwens, that know u as a whole, alwayz believe in u...It just that they are not here, to support u, and u always need support. So..suport ur own self, no matter what, no matter what. Go on, u always have the positive side of u, that keep on pushing u, and Allah is everywhere, no matter where u are. Positive and go on. Aszifaris can overcome it. Sure, aszifaris can...

Dare to do it alone ok! Just pursue. Have a very positive image inside ur mind. Imagine all of this being solved. Shut all negativity. Jangan layan lagik kisah2 negatif dari orang2. It brings a very negatif aura to you.People keep on coming to you, tak tau pasepa, and u cannot avoid people, but u can tuka topik, tuka topik. Only think and speak good things....sesuatu yg berfaedah..Tak cool pun takpala....klau nak melawak menda2 negatif yg bengong pun untuk apa kan....have ur own prinsip and perspektif.

Bila buntu, bagi diri sepenuh2nya hanya untuk Allah. Penyelesaian itu akan tiba, taktau dari mana, tapi ia akan tiba. Seburuk2 kejadian, tapi jika kita percaya dengan kuasa Allah, percayalah Allah tune semua jadi elok, elok dari sudut kita, elok dari sudut semuanya. There u are , commit and serahkan segala-galanya pada Allah. It always happen to you rite?

Penat dah nasihat cik aszifaris. Dengaq cakap kali ni ok. Dengaq cakap. Dan syaitan2 skalian, tolong jauhi cik aszifaris. Kesian kat dia. She just want to be a good muslim, and have a peaceful life. Jangan la datang kacau, dan buat orang confius. Tak baik. Jahat tau, Cik aszifaris nak masuk syurga, dier tanak join neraka tuh...And cik aszifaris, syaitan datang kacau kita, kat tempat yg kita lemah, atasi kelemahan ni. Prove to those yg dok mai kacau ni, U'll pass this. So they wont kacau this part lagik. Sekacau2 apa pun, kuasa Allah lagik tinggi. Percaya pada Allah OK. Cik aszifaris, end this jiwa kacau things ok. And move on.

(2) And so, when they are about to reach the end of their waiting-term, either retain them in a fair manner or part with them in a fair manner. And let two persons of [known] probity from among your own community ⁷ witness [what you have decided]; and do yourselves bear true witness before God: ⁸ thus are admonished all who believe in God and the Last Day. And unto everyone who is conscious of God, He [always] grants a way out [of unhappiness],

(3) and provides for him in a manner beyond all expectation; ⁹ and for everyone who places his trust in God He [alone] is enough. Verily, God always attains to His purpose: [and] indeed, unto everything has God appointed its [term and] measure.

-At-Talaq 2-3

And owh yeah, baca doa, sebelum pakai baju :

Things to complete :
-JO
-Test Case
-one blog..